How do you know when you’re being called into ministry? What form might the call take, and what form might the ministry take? I am still turning these questions over in my mind and heart and prayers. In the process, I’ve started keeping a journal to record any answers that fall into my life.
In July I summarized what’s happened so far and wrote the following:
For the joy of feeling His Spirit move, touching peoples’ hearts… seeing lives turn around, inspired to worship Him and follow Him and know Him. Watching people grow in their ability to step out in faith for Him.
For the joy of being useful to Him, that is, feeling His Spirit move through me as we share life together, and rejoicing in knowing I am truly His.
Because people say to me: “teach us”. Because they say: “you make sense, you can relate to where I am.”
Because of a deep, deep need to stand up for His truth, to say to the usurpers and pretenders: “No more! Quit fleecing the flock, these sheep are not yours, they were not put here for your emotional gratification or to meet your ego needs. They belong to God and if you’re not willing to lead them to Him then I will.”
Because I can’t stand milquetoast spirituality any more. Not in myself, and not in the church. The joy and the wonder and the grandeur and the tenderness and the compassion of our amazing God are so sorely missing in most of what passes for church. This needs to change! And I need to “be the change I want to see”.
Because of an almost overwhelming feeling of gratitude and indebtedness towards all who have gone before – starting with Jesus Himself, the Ultimate Lover; then all the saints and martyrs down through the ages on whose shoulders we stand; the ‘great cloud of witnesses’ which, with every passing day it seems, includes more people I know and love and who I know are cheering me on; and last but never least the ones who have written His word on my heart. (II Cor 3:2-3)
Because I know ministry will require all I have to give, and more.
Because pastors have said to me regarding ordination: “don’t count it out”. What’s up with that?? “We need you.” Wow.
Because the front lines is where I’ve always wanted to be. Not for glory, but just to stand with the great company and be counted.